Really random!!!

(kind of just had to get this out of me....I'm not depressed just really frustrated)

Why....
Why have u embedded these useless emotions in me? Knowing they can't ever be satisfied, what am I meant to do?
Cry? I'm not yet there, but I can feel it approaching, like a dark cloud, this depression. It's alright I guess...I've done it before.
Sulk? This is also nothing new. A kid denied a favorite piece of candy because another child has just been by, that is what I am. As long as you are hers I will covet you.
Forget you entirely? That's probably what I should do, but I'm too weak. To forget you, the things you inspire in me would be close to impossible. The very sight of you brings a smile to my lips. The sound of your soft voice quickens my longing heart. No, I will not banish you from my heart!
It would be heaven to loathe the girl who has possession of you, but I'm not even allowed that. She is sweet and a friend in my eyes. Maybe, if I try hard, I could be happy for you both. Yes, I'll try this. But I'll always wonder
Why me?
Why now?
Why have you made me love you?